okay i have been quite lazy and keji..
My previous two posts were full of pictures and becoming less and less wordy already.. =P
I actually wanted to post about my august babies birthday party that my floor organized for all the august babies on our floor. BUT if i started to post all the pics, i would subconsciously.. writing less and less. Hence, the delay of the birthday post kayy =)
Hmm, lately, i have been thinking.. *CHIMMM topic*
I reckon me is blessed. Happened to live the life im living now.
Having so many people care about me, being there for me. U know who you are.
And out of a sudden i came to realize that.. i am really bad in keeping promises and keeping in touch. Yessssshhh i just realized that..
I think.. okay personally i think if a friend happened to be with me, he/she would be incredibly appreciated and spoilt. Cuz im a super bochi girl and thus my friend normally gets what she/he wants from me. And i think im quite caring ( hehe to be honest ma) and sensitive? And i don't mind doing all sorts of crazee things with her/him and even if i got insulted/teased i would take it all..for the sake of a good laugh i supposed.
Okay enough of bodek-ing myself..
But when someone/something get out of my sight.. i tend to.. neglect them?
And is that the reason why i often feel regret?
When i finally lose something/someone which were there all along without me realizing.. until the day they left me?
HMMMMMM,very 'bahaya'..
The more i think about it, the more 'thinking' i'll do and i will eventually think about it again and again.. and the vicious cycle goes on. okkk lah, my point is.. i dont like to do all these 'emo thinking' it makes me emo.
But.. if u know me well enough, u should be able to tell where u stand in my heart right? i guess it's just me.. i am not very good in doing these things.. writing email,sending cards/texts.. orrrrrrrrrrrr im too spoilt that i thought i dont have to do all these and naive-ly believe that "so long as u know i care about you,that's more than enough ma! " ?
Somehow recently few things happened that struck me. I thought if we're close enough, we do not have to keep in touch as often as it may seems and yet we still got each others' back.. i know where i can turn to when im sad, who to share my happiness with when im ecstatic.
WRONG SALAH.
Yessshh because now... once again, i realize that distance..!! distance!! does make a lil impact. Yeah i know if 2 persons are willing to make a lil bit more effort, distance is never a problem.. DENG DENG DENG.. again, with a lazy person like me.. the effort that i have made will never be enough for those of you who expect more from me.
like seriously, never..
but there are just some people who can accept me for who i am.. is it because i am not as close to them and hence they never care if i dont keep in touch , or is it simply because they have better temper?
i always expect something from someone, but i hahahaha, sumtimes 'forget' that some people are expecting something from me too.
I should make more sacrifices from now onwards i think..
RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT?
