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whispery.
shout, scream and be heard.





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adieu.
may our roads intertwine again







they love us.
yes, be jealous.








this far apart.
fouder hearts.


Perth, AU

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ponder on the blessings and be grateful.

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Saturday, October 31, 2009
torn. weak. devastated. 6:03:00 PM



Pek Kong, why didn't you wait for me. Just another month I'll be home to fullfill the promise I made, for myself and for you. To spend more time with you, to be by your side to go through the pain.



Just the thought of this has torn my heart apart. How long will it take to put them back in one piece?



I love you, whole heartedly.



No matter where you are now, you will always be in my mind, cross my heart.



If the saying

"God will never give you anything you can’t handle."


is true, then why I feel so weak right now.

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Saturday, October 24, 2009
sarah:25/10 7:08:00 PM

Happy birthday mr lee!

Finally you're 21, hmmmm, hope you have a fantastic celebration!

umm, and pls pray that you get the present safely =.= stupid pos malaysia.

im going to see you real soon! =) yay!

miss you!!

um,bye!


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Wednesday, October 21, 2009
1+:u're just jealous because we act retarded in public and people still loves us 8:46:00 PM

1+ said (11:54 AM):
i had the weirdest dream on earth
but it's so real


1+ said (5:37 PM):
*about the dream
*if it's prediction for future
*u'll kill me


1+ said (5:39 PM):
*oh
*u are married and have kids d
*i go visit u

aiting said (5:42 PM):
*omg
*i dc =.=
*hahahahaha

aiting said (5:43 PM):
*at this age la?

1+ said (5:43 PM):
*i dunno wor
*u... i'm not sure
*blur image
*i only remember ur husband very ugly
*and ur house is horrible

1+ said (5:44 PM):
*like rumah papan with simen floor, and u don even have a door
*use tilam cloth to cover the entry/exit only

aiting said (5:44 PM):
*hahhahahahahahaha
*T.T
*kenapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

1+ said (5:44 PM):
* i dunnnoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
*hahahahaha
*then i went to visit u
*awwwwww
*so surprised to see ur house

1+ said (5:45 PM):
*then u were watching a ghost movie
*remember gothika?
*u were watching that, then u asked me to join u

aiting said (5:45 PM):
*haha
*we watched tht together isnt it

1+ said (5:45 PM):
*then i felt very uneasy bcoz no door, outside got a weird ah pek kept peeping into the house
1+ said (5:46 PM):
*the wind blew the tilam cloth then i saw him looking at us
*omg
*it's at night btw
*hahahaha
*and the funny part is when i ask u y u watch this movie
*ur ans is ULTRA funny

aiting said (5:48 PM):
*hahahahha
*YERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
*why?


1+ said (5:48 PM):
*coz...
*gothika sounds like atika u said
*=.=


aiting said (5:48 PM):
*so scary


1+ said (5:48 PM):
*atika is a malay fren of mine in perth


aiting said (5:48 PM):
*HAAHAHAHA
aiting said (5:49 PM):
*what is atika?


1+ said (5:49 PM):
*1+ said (5:48 PM):
*atika is a malay fren of mine in perth

aiting said (5:49 PM):
*HAMILAN
*hahahahahhahahahah
*you better slp less i think
aiting said (5:50 PM):
*bodoh dream


1+ said (5:50 PM):
*btw ur husband is ugly
*i don remember his face
*but he's very thin
*wear singlet
*like chaotung style
*but he's ugly one... like ah pek....


aiting said (5:51 PM):
*ahahahahha T.T

1+ said (5:51 PM):
*hahaha
*i don remember


aiting said (5:51 PM):
*very long and detailed dream though
*lol

1+ said (5:51 PM):
*i just remember feeling...
*very sad for u

aiting said (5:51 PM):
*omg T.T
*pls pls


1+ said (5:51 PM):
*then i was like... what happened ar to my best friend, y she chose this guy?
*but i didnt tell u


aiting said (5:52 PM):
*it cant be predictive
*no way
*im gonna kill you for real
*if it is


1+ said (5:52 PM):
*hahaha
*since i tell u already


aiting said (5:52 PM):
*no no
*it wont
*pls dont
*no no
*now im scared
*shit you


1+ said (5:52 PM):
*it wont come true?
*if i'm evil enough, i should keep this secret with me
*until 10years later
*hahahaha


aiting said (5:53 PM):
*omg T.T
*ok thanks

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Tuesday, October 13, 2009
1+: is grumpyyyyyyyyy 4:11:00 PM

I think I figure why I will never be in good terms with pharmacy course.



because the things that I'm learning, do not excite me as much as the knowledge I obtained back in kindergarden/primary school/high school or even college! even when the knowledge is more professional and specific now



who cares which drugs can be used to treat which disease, which can cause whatever side effects, how the drugs kill the bacteria. I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!!



I don't wanna be the helpful pharmacist who can contribute to improving the well-being of the neighborhood. I don't wanna earn so much money and I don't wanna help to relieve pain suffered by patients. I don't wanna care about my own and my family as well as my relatives and friends' health. I don't care if my work can actually carve smiles on patients' face. WHO CARES.



Sigh. maybe I do.



...well... enough of babbling and back to smothering myself with notes then T____T


really want to go out on such sunny day with cool breeze =( such perfect weather, wasted.

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Sunday, October 11, 2009
1+: wonders 10:19:00 PM


=3

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Friday, October 9, 2009
sarah:gain 1:51:00 PM

I have quite a lot in my head lately,not sure if it's pms that have me thinking this much, or i simply understand things more! i bet it's the latter!

Had the most meaningful talk with san today. I am glad we had this talk, this is like the best decision ever to go out with her today! She talked to me about life, and we talked about how our friendship has evolved over these 3 years. I feel bad for not making an effort to stay this close with her! We talked about how i cried over the fact that we could not live in the same hall anymore. I used to be so dependent on her, but last year when i met a good bunch of floor people, i did not realize how i got used to not having her by my side as often anymore. it's really weird what time can do. We can easily replace an important person/thing that you once thought worth the whole world. Well somehow, it's hidden somewhere in your mind till the one crucial thing/event that spill them all out again.
And you know what's the worst thing? is that she could feel it too and decided to accept me for who i am and did not utter a single word/confront me (like what miss teo would have done haha). sorry san, next year we gonna make extra effort ok! it feels like i got a long lost friend back, and i am going to appreciate it this time =)

It's like how 8 linai works, the fact that we're scattered at the different part of the world has in fact sumhow deter us to meet/talk everyday. But when we get together, nothing stays between us! and like how i always go to chao tung when i finish my exams/tests. He is not my closest friend, but i think it's because we left the country together, there's a special mutual understanding between us. and that he understands me, he listens to me, and most importantly, he is here in nz with me.


Had another serious talk with yoshi too when we went out to hunt for desert the other day. I have never realized how much he treasure me as his close friend and alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll i think is that i am just one of his hall friends. and he got so upset for not receiving a single text from me when he's sick. a simple act like that can be missed you see. T.T

And also how you change your perception completely when you get to know that person better, as time goes by. I used to hate josh balhorn so much, but now he texted me when i was sick, and i got him a cake for his birthday. HAHA =.= and how i got to know Kit is an emo kid despite his really carefree music man look , how me and ashley decided to have midnight snack to talk about this enemy that he and me despise! LOL... AND HOW CHARLES LAUGH AT MY MALAYSIAN ACCENTS EVERYTIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I TALK! =.= Sometimes i wonder when did we start teasing each other and get on each others' nerve!

Again, there is this one night that i felt lonely. You can go to any friends, but not so easy when you only feel like talking to someone mature enough to understand you, caring enough to listen to you, and simply being there for you. I could not find the girls, cheng was out with her bf, andrea was with her friend, vian was at a church gathering, san wasnt replying my text, jia was sick.. okay, the only guy i feel like talking to was leceh and we talked for 1 hour over the phone. i felt so much better but still i need to actually talk to someone here in nz together with me too! i called home eventually, not a good idea cuz i was drowned in homesick for the rest of the night.. =.=

my point is.. what a good friend can do for you is really depending on the situation. i can be there for you when you need me, but i cant be always waiting for you to turn to me. i do not blame anyone who cant be there for me when i needed someone. so please understand that i do not live for youuuuu, i have my own life, and i have my right to choose to be someone else's angel.

Having said that, i myself have problems deciding what to do. i guess i am thinking too much. haha. leceh said he could not understand what i wrote, and me neither. i guess i really want to say.. having friends who can understand you and be with you 'no matter what' is really truly blessed. As easy as it may sound, i dont think 'no matter what' is possible, according to nigel apparently. And not to get upset with someone you care so much is not possible, ever, not at the slightest bit. The more you give, the more you expect in return. DONT SAY YOU DONT MIND, because you do. hmm, am i lucky then to have found this one person that expect the least from me?

Spent the second half of my day with vian and andrea. These two kids cracked me up. And we kept accusing of vian telling lies. Suddenly i feel sad that i am not going to see them often next year as cheng and me are gonna stay somewhere further. hmm,feel sorry to cheng cuz she has to put up with the location, apparently it is wayyyyy more convenient for me. But anyway, i shall not let the history repeat itself. We must have gathering at least once in two weeks!

Parcel from yuko definitely reminds me of how wonderful it is to have someone mature than you to listen to you. i miss her laughter, i miss the time when we spent the night talking about her past and she cried. sigh. why do we have to stay apart from alll our close friends? why cant japan be located at queen street, why cant Kristian stay here for a 4-year-program instead of just a year exchange program, why cant claire be the RA of ororke instead of international house, why cant 8 li nai study in auckland together, why is there no auckland uni in terengganu, why cant the time stops and reverses back to winter time where i met amanda and tara in sydney and why not to last year, why not to the time when we were in intec with my 4-in-lovey, why not to form 5 the drama competition!
okay definitely a sign of pms.


On a brighter note, I..A..M..G..O..I..N..G..H..O..M..E..I..N..A..M..O..N..T..H..!!!!

hmm, i started it so randomly, and i am ending this abruptly. Simply because i have been out whole day i am so dizzy and tired. but i really wanna jot this down.

so, does it mean... this is another emo post? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. meh, going to sleep.


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Tuesday, October 6, 2009
feel like writing. 3:35:00 PM

short update!

am listening to 你要的爱. used to like this song despite F4 vanessa's fugly long straight hair.


hmm, do you realize that, you tend to relate a song to a certain person? i cant remember who i relate this song to, but i have a feeling that it's gonna be something bad =.=

am done with all my assignments! now i only have exams left awaiting for me.

i cant wait to go home!

and do you know you can feel happy and sad at the same time? i never knew that. but to be honest, do you know that there's someone that will never make you feel sad? i never knew that.
again, do you know that sometimes it is easier to do something without thinking/talking about it? says who it's ' easier to be said than done' i never knew that either. sei for, i miss him




hmm, it's weird, but i enjoy being alone now. o.m.g.






emo again meh? siennnz =.= or my thinking is getting more mature and deep. i have reached another stage in my life. which is pretty cool.

anyway,work hard work smart, but do not be jahat, because this is my nasihat.
i miss chws already.

on a side note, yijia, have you gotten kutu from my muthu?
i miss you also. let's laugh till we're both breathless when we meet again.



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1+: the power of thought. 1:45:00 PM

just to share a small thought today...



I'm not sure whether it's a western australian or the whole nation thing, but after moving to off campus accommodation, i get to know that every house must be equipped with two big dustbins in front of the house, one green for the usual rubbish and another yellow one for the recyclable trash.


The rubbish collector will come every Tuesday, early in the morning to clear the bins so on Monday night, the dustbins have to be pushed as near to the roadside as possible for their convenience.


As effective as we are, we have duty roaster in our house. Every week each of us is assigned with different house chores to do, including one with transfering the rubbish in the house into the big dustbin outside and push the dustbin to the roadside on Monday night.


Last week, apparently one of my house mate, who was responsible of clearing the trash bin, wasn't fully aware of her job. She did bring out the rubbish when it is full but she forgot to push the big dustbins out on Monday night. I came home at 11pm last Monday and saw them standing happily in the parking area of the house. So I thought "hmm I shall remind her later", but then she wasn't home. And by the time she was home, I was already asleep.


Hence, the dustbins weren't cleared for a week and now the rubbish is overflowing.


and guess what? It is my turn this week T__T



Last night, when I walked out of the house to push the bins, the disgusting scene really traumatised me. The trash is overflowing, with the horrible smell and bugs crawling everywhere.
SHIT I tell u. I tied plastic bags on my hand and started picking up trash on the ground. I picked up a coke bottle and it spilled on my leg T__T


I picked up another cardboard and at least THREE small cockroaches crawling out of it in front of my eyes. Yea, imagine my frustration. I was so furious of her irresponsibility and also the ignorance of the downstair neighbour. Yea, speaking of the "neighbour", we all are using the same dustbins, and they never, ever take initiative to push them out when we forgot wtf.


I was swearing and cursing all the way while cleaning up the mess. Luckily one of my guy friend came coincidentally and he helped me (TvT) sometimes I really feel so lucky and blessed. Can't imagine myself doing it alone because I know my house mates well, they won't volunteer to help in such disgusting situation.


I quickly went for a warm water bath right after that. Surprisingly, the warm water bath cooled me down a bit. It suddenly occurred to me that if I took the initiative to help the gal last week to push out the bins, knowing that she must have forgotten, although it isn't my job, I won't have to suffer this week.


I won't have to pick up trash scattered everywhere and allow the cockroaches crawling on my feet (yes according to him, there WERE roaches on my feet omg). I'm not saying that I'm at full responsibility of this small incident, just that If I were to be a little bit more proactive and helpful, I don't have to bear the consequences.


After coming out of the bathroom, I felt better =) there's a saying in Buddhism that thought is the most powerful tool in life, what u think can change how u feel and how u go through obstacles and hindrances. Something like that lah but I find it very true. Once u adjust the way u think by a few degrees (cheiiiiii physic haha), everything will appear to be different.



just a two cents of mine. and i guess it worths a post, to remind me to be nicer and more helpful in the future.



xoxo

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