was thinking of writing a post about my trip. but 2 things happened and now i cant even put a smile on my face.
Dad came back after his haircut together with a news that shocked me so much that i went blank for a few secs, and when i regained conscious, i kept asking him to show me the news he read.
He passed away,3 days ago. my bestie's dad. He's one great dad, a really great one. Ask anyone who knows him and ull get the same answer. i am so sure. I hope i can do something for him now, i hope my bestie knows how much we care about her, i hope they can get thru this.
Bcoz.. They are so close to each other. The whole family even made a trip to nz to visit this friend of mine. And they always have family trip to overseas. And he loves his daughter so much, so much that i feel touched, i feel blessed for her. Her dad reminds me of my dad, her dad shows how much love a dad can have for his children. and i always respect him.
And he bought me lunch and dinner a few times during finals time just so we can focus on our revision. I really love him! We met again last year and he gave me a notebook. OHhh,did i mention that he's like a santa claus, he used to give us heaps of 'mentos' when he was working at that company and the latest flavour! and after he changed his job, he gave us some other stuff. Sweet of him isnt it?
But he left,out of a sudden. No one knows the reason yet, and no one had the chance to say goodbye to him bcuz he left, just like that, without any sign. just a collapse in a friend's house. and he left forever.
I feel like crying. now i know how unpredictable and fragile a life can be. AND YET.
mom and bro was quarreling just now. I was sitting in the middle and tried to comfort the mother who has tears welled up in her eyes and at the same time, trying to say something that calm my bro down. But i failed miserably, bcuz he left after an awkward silence with the car keys. haih
I wanted to tell him so much that what if one day something bad happens and we wont be able to see each other anymore, will he feel regret for leaving just now! and i super hate seeing my mom being sad. Cuz everyone knows how tough she is and i have the biggest confidence when she says so and hence when she is upset, it means the whole world is collapsing. That's what i feel la.
Dad's trying to calm mom down now, he was lucky cuz he wasnt there when the whole fight toook place, he was having a nap upstairs. i thought of asking him to come down, but i know he's tired after working for the whole day at the shop.
MA DE. i wanna finish my study ASAP. and hopefully i can be so rich. and i can make them healthy and happy. no working no worries.
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May him rest in peace, dear Lord. He's so kind u will love him if u see him in heaven.
and to my bestie. Be strong, ill always be with you. and the other owner of this blog. and all our friends. We love you. smile =) U know u can reach us whenever u need someone. i am really concern about you, stop crying soon. We will miss him always.
love you gal.
1+: sorry for adding sth here gal, but guess what, I was actually planning to write the same post too! =) And yes gal, we're just a call away, I promise I'll try my best to be there for u whenever u need me =) Stay strong.
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