i am amazed by her courage. always.
She speaks out,she stands up for her family her friends and now, her lurve.
She told me once, do what you want, before you feel regret not doing it. just like her erke, they both have the passion and faith in a person they chose. regardless the barriers, the differences and the difficulties.
God knows how envious i am to those who have the courage to do whatever they want, i have been trying. mustering courage. building confidence. heightening my faith. and yet it seems i can never be like them, i can never be one.
Too much worries overwhelmed me. Everytime i come up with a slight 'unique' or i rather say different opinion, i shiver i stutter until someone come next to me and pull me down tearing my dream apart,a dream that is not even complete to start with.. and that's when i give up, once again. despite i really wanted a try.
I really want to. but i never manage to. Because i dont live for myself. i live for others. others whom i love, much more than i do to myself. At this moment, i do not know if this is right. i do not know if im happy. but nevertheless this is what i have chosen, so i must not regret.
miss poh, congratz! =D xoxo
ps: sueyen i wanna go boston because my pms here is bothering me so much. =(