au(ra) of (in)dulgence.

Friday, March 25, 2011

today I don't feel like doing anything 9:50:00 PM

i'm so happy today

as I was walking down the street back from work today, even though the intense heat from sunlight almost burnt my skin, I feel incredibly happy today

I thought of my V, whom I fight with a lot, but at least we know we are in a truthful relationship (and we don't have to blame any outsider for any flaw in our relationship bleh)

I thought of my wonderful friends, who listen to my rant and be there for me when I'm down, who reconnect with me after misunderstanding, who introduce job for me, who drive me around for random dinner, who crack lame jokes over dinner table, who I know, love me a lot =)

I thought of my recent unbelievable luck, where even I got "the worst placement one can get (quote pharmacy students) for my rotation, I met many friendly and helpful colleagues, I learn a lot, I have a healthier lifestyle now, I am more confident in doing what I'm now and I really enjoy it; luck where I went to a random bus stop and check for bus time when I didn't have a single clue, the right bus came a few mins later, right in front of me; luck where I met a friendly bus driver, who stopped right in front of my destination just for me; luck where I get the nicest tutor ever as my examiner.

I thought of the complete happy family I have, where we are always on each other's back. We don't contact each other everyday, believe it or not I only video call my parents once in 2 to 3 weeks time, but every video call is warm and cheer me up every single time. I have a loving and funny dad who's very excited about V (lol), a talented mom who prepares all the delicious meals for us, a cute sister that I love a lot.

I thought of my courage and patience, where I learn to build up at work, nasty people is everywhere, I may bring the anger and sorrow to sleep and wake up with a completely different mood.

I thought of the job interview I had today and it went well. I never attend any and I have almost null working experience but I'm just so lucky to be able to introduced to this job.

seriously, what is there to be unhappy?

(of coz, unless, u include natural disaster around the world =.=)

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Sunday, March 20, 2011

hallo? 1:47:00 PM

wake up!

i'll not abandon u, i'll visit u more often, pen down (err it's more like typing down) my thoughts whenever I have any, the rush of thoughts come every now n then yet none of them is strong enough to drag me to this little corner.

i need to write more, jot down more memories, lessons, experiences, hate and love =)

so random. i know.

one of the side effect of having assessment tomorrow where the examiner will come to ur pharmacy and ask u tonnes of questions while looking straight into ur face and nobody can help u and u can't do the swirl-the-pen-and-pick-an-ans trick. while i'm only half done with my study. great.

i'll survive. i broke down millions of times, asking myself why am i doing this, why am i here, do i even like what i'm doing every now and then, but i guess i'll still stick to my belief where everything happens for a reason.

meh i shall stop here.

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