au(ra) of (in)dulgence.

Friday, April 23, 2010

1+: =( 12:42:00 AM

have u ever had a feeling that u r stuck in a life that u dislike?

like literally stuck in the middle of nowhere and u can't do anything about it except to go forward to pass this phase, alone, by urself

n u're so afraid to share this piece of feeling of urs to anyone because nobody will understand

not even those who u thought u can count on to

every morning u will wake up and think "ahhh not again" and when u successfully dread (such irony) the whole day away, it's time for u to go to bed for another unwanted day.

seriously, this sem has been giving me nothing but multiple mental breakdown and countless stress and pressure.

just want a getaway, can i?

Labels: 1+, emoism., rants, stress.emo., uni life

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Saturday, April 17, 2010

i is grumpy 12:34:00 PM

some people often wonder why they can't gain trust from others, why they can't seem to find connection with a certain group of people, why they feel the bond they already had with their present friends are fading by time,

but they fail to see that they are ALWAYS oblivious of other's needs and feelings,

ALWAYS say hurtful and demeaning things to others, oh please don't tell me you don't mean it that way it was the listener who misinterpreted your freaking words, if you care to learn a bit more to speak the truth by taking into account others' feeling, this will never happen, again and again. And guess what, it might be the whole world misinterpreted you, not your fault ey

ALWAYS fail to show appreciation to the efforts and helps others have done to them

ALWAYS only did things their own freaking way without considering others' feeling

ALWAYS making stupid assumptions and conclusions and freaking stick to them no matter the truth in front of them is showing otherwise

really, whenever anything undesirable happened to you, instead of feeling sad and complaining and blaming others, why don't you take some of your precious time to sit down and think what have gone wrong and what responsibility you have to fix it

written by a grumpy lady who got freaking waken up by the sound pollution of vacuum cleaner and machine banging onto her door.

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Sunday, April 4, 2010

Easter sunday =) 7:35:00 PM

Haha! just read jia's private blog after so long! im glad you're enjoying his company every moment you guys spent together!

sorry guys for not updating blog as often anymore! we both were busy as before the easter, but miss teo is even busier during easter break! so here i am to fill fen's lonely heart. I have finished my first run! gonna miss the surgical team, everyone's an angel! <3

Anyway, as much as i deserve the easter break (not just people in love like miss teo), i dont get one! Oh well, we have a 4-day-weekend, so it can sorta make up for it. Im trying not to medicalize this blog, tho im very much tempted to tell you guys about hospital!!

Oh, by the way, living with chengyii is such a blessing. She made me food when i am tired and she made me sandwiches for lunch in the hospital too =) Our 'third' flatmate, her bf Kev is just as lovely as she is, he made me a reminder on the door so that i don't KEEP forgetting different things on different day =.= And trust me, as boring as grocery shopping might sound, i actually love doing that! when chengyii and me would buy some snacks for our tea break or study break! While watching a few episodes of funny dumb hk drama/taiwanese reality show when we pretty much lost our momentum to study. I am glad i came flatting this year, it has been great! =) Thank you hun!

And oh, it's easter today!! Hopefully we all get reborn through Christ on this meaningful day. I was emo last week when i went for confession, feeling helpless for not being able to keep in touch with close friends due to the heavy workload in the hospital and it stresses me out. I started questioning myself, is it worthy to spend so much time on work just to realize i cant live without the people i love. I am so glad God answered my prayers and I am so grateful to have gone for confession. It was totally rewarding, listening to what the Father said during my confession made me strong once again and it actually feels good to cry in the church because you know that God is there to listen and He will be able to strengthen you and never failed to love you as His child. Have a blessed easter everyone =)

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